(***** For those who dont know.. usually the windows are behind the curtains****)
ok.. Juts above I sleep is a Window.. which is like my freedom to fesh air. I mean.sometimes it so wierd.. how a non-breathin entity becomes such an important integrat part of your life. I use it for smoke..smoke and smoke.. and maybe sometimes.. to c how humid is it outside.
Why in the hell is that when u smoke.. outside the window.. its the time for the whole world to show up..Uncles goin in.. Uncles goin out.. Aunities ... gossipm..or rather children..making those devious plans.
And though everyone know I smoke.. I end up throwin away a half lit cigi to show respect. These people end up owing me my lifetime.. but who cares of life these days.. I mean.. show me the Money, and I will give u life time
The cars are parked outside.. thru which my window has a pure nice glance..and after smokin..i usually challenge myself till where i can throw the butt of my cigi.. and...what do u know.. all the cars have a landmark of my successful trademark of my new sport..its just that one day . I know.. I am goin to get it all.
The car shed.. longs for one big dust storm to clear the cigis which like rain.. upon em.. everday.. but these days i smoke less.. because I am always asleep.. dreamin..when wlll be the day i cross that 25 meter mark for myy cigi throwin competition.
Kinda all tierd today.. more of dehtdration..maybe its not 2 much sex.. in my life.. ya rite.. I havent heard that word.. for along time. Back in the college...everyone used to hide porns under their mattress.. rememeberin that.. makes me laugh.. I mean one dosent have to be Sherlock..to find the porns. in a mates room. These days..electronic media.. and stuff.. so porns are like stored in pen drives... SO defintely ..u cant use em unless u have an computer..or u need to hold the pen drive andlet imagination show u the way..which is grosss...But hey thats the world today.
I was talking to my classmate the other day.. a very gentle..softspoken lad. and did figure out.. those who fared not so good in college are doin well..which I am happy about.. he deserves such good things in life.
But ya.. remembering the tItans. I never let go of my last position in class.. however good i scored. somethins are meant for me.
Slowly slowly I am figuring out ....LOVE aint for me..dont know why..cant love anyone other than myself.. maybe an insecurity..which I dont belive.. I mean.. i HaD the chance ,.. but sometimes.. u know.. ur ethics take control over u . I mean.. there is so less time in this world to dedicate knowin a perosn.. becomin freinds..what not.. whereas in the mean time u can spend some time watchin footy on tele..or rather sleepin.
But then all depends on.. is she worth it..seriously she is worth it. but sometimes u know.. its long road to walk..and u got to be a fool or in poets word.. romantic to walk that distance.. I belive such a word exists only after marriage.. because u know..its worth every second .
so blah!! mushhhhhyyyy. crap.. lets stop that stuff here.. i say.
FEELIN kinda so cold.. kinda what u call.. cant move my legs.. one of those days..
Just waitin for my bro to come to Kuwait, so that way he can hit it on PS2... and can go shopin for him.
I started goin back to myself.. the one I love.. I had to delete the ex crushes from MY orkut...because ..ist kinda..tacky and dumb!!! she asked me to write a testimonial for her.. ya rite..over my dead body..my testimonail wud start..love u whore..and take care. bitch.. and seriously the letter body wud consist of profanities.. that wud start the sensation all over again. I mean.. i left half of my world.. and moved on to be happy..if thers anythin that cud start all over again I wud say ,, na!! no way.. because I have seen ladies better than her..
And one such gal still lingers in my head.. and i Know she wud be readin this. But sorry gal.. My ethics..or principles.. kinda .tell me. to love u more .. but listen to ur head.. not ur heart for a change...Thats why..all the offline msgs..and trust me.. I know..eventually uw ill understand..or I am goin to end up chatin with u-------Men are such emotional fools.. I say.. they never stick to their word.
Last night shift of the week.. my body has taken the last 7 nights in a very positive way... I man.. there u go.. .. and now.. its cool from here.. tHERE ARE things I dont understand.. why do i wear all the perfumes..like lacoste red in left arm.. hug o boss in the rite arm.. Armani Geo on my neck..and raph lauren black on my clothes.. .. and that 2 in the nite shift when no ones around..seriosuly there is an issue i need to address...
isnt this world so wierd... that even if u try to undertand it . u fall short..so why ..waste time. and keep on drenchin ur self with perfumes...
Oh yes! we were in the window part.. Whats left to say,,
Guess from my window.. u see all this..
tada..
c u soon
