Just a poem !!!! .........(yawn)

Moonlit.... after a sunny day...

chilly memories...

Talk about the Sunset..

kept company by a smoke....

of a firelit warmth.

Guess...Like always,

Found out late,

Love hidden in shadows...Of Ego.
Hopeless dreams comes true,

It haunts ...could it be,

just let another one pass by.
Can let tears rule ,

Aint worth the dirt,

But then.. Sometimes..One has to give up,

Will it happen...
Memories of her smiles,

smiles of her schedules,

irritated by her silence,

guess... tried to hard not to make it happen,

when all the way I knew,

This could be special.

saw me walkaway,

It could have been....

Saw her walkaway,

It should have been...

Not trying what to do,

Falling Apart,..

.........is the best I do.
Picked by the thorns of roses,

standing in rain.. filled with unseen tears.. as always....

Can see me angry .. But calm.

Heart breaks ....

days after the storms gone mild.
They say...

You need more than beautiful heart...

To smell the beauty around you..

They say...You need more than a beautiful heart...

To let go.. the feeling...

that you actually fell in love.

Guess... Its back to the drawing Board,

dream..experience...

The pain of leting go..and...

Silence of victory of a trophyless game.

Sometimes... U just realize...

Sorry can never always be Perfect!!!:-)

And...

Tomorrow..... all will be forgotten.. I hope

Lol... Its been long time, Since I written shit like these.. rocking aint it.. Hmm Maybe I should write more of these..
The first and last poem ( if u can call that...... ) of 2006.. FRom the house of !!Immsy!!!!

Booo.... its really true

Clap..cheers... ta mate...My fans.. cant let em down.

Well, I was so kinda bored..so thought of messing the entire thing up.

Thought of many things, That i could.. write..like the

1)The alliances that rejected me

2) the allainces that I rejected

3) The alliances that rejected me before I cud reject

4) the alliances i rejected, before they could reject me

Well, i EVEN thought of pening down the names of the people involved.. but my pal.. ka monay...told me not to .. as it mite incidently hurt their feelings.. But at that point of moment.. the thought that came to mind.. was.. How do I care?... But, then with all due respect, Dont want to do messy stuffs..like that.

So.. bro and mom gone to india.. and from kanyakumari to the other end of kerala..whichever state that may be.. they would be huntin down the gals for me.. Poor.. Veerapan..mite envy me on that !!!..and even enter negotiations with the alliances that I am supposed to meet..Lol Indian marriages..isnt that fun.. expecially when u go for an arranged one..

So, The festive season has crash landed... well, I am weaing a scarf around my neck.. quite wierd.. though.. but hey its good stuff from a designer wear.

Now,.. There is somethin I want to share with me, since these blogs are usually read by me..most of the times.

I have been thinkin of love,, as in winder perspective of things.. Since i got the 42 inch plasma..all my views have now been seen in a wider range, which is good....

SO, yes.. lately, I have been getin this nasty feeling that .. I can actually love someone other than me.. its just that thought at the back of my head.. that keeps on saying.. Love.. hmm!!!( it brings out of the equation.. if u take out sex out of love... will u love .. quite debatable.. but lets leave that topic for another time)....

All these years., either I got dumped.. before the process eventually started..or I dumped gals.. because I got bored of em.... the last one.. I guess. was.. like .. 16 months.. I guess!!!which is 2 long ...and that ..2 16 months..because we lived in 2 diffrent countries.. well.. the closed of timespan.. when both the individuals were in one place..was like.. 1 month or so.. I mean..who wud give up pleasures of life like football.. and alcoholism.. to be with theones they love... ..unless the gal was an alcoholic.. in ehich case.. I was never lucky in that angle.

So there u go.. and these days mom..suspects me of breaking up alliances..wierd.. its easy though.. but na.. cudnt get ..into those matters of.. fun.

Anyways...so Like i was sayin..love..yes!!! its quite nice a feeling.. I mean.. yday .. i saw this cute dog..,and it was nice.. sorry..ok!! will get serious.. Now.. I suspect I mite have 2 make that 3-4 days trip..if some stupid gal,..says yes .. damm1! dont these gals who come as an alliance read my Blogs..

OK..IF THERE ARE DUMB GALS OUT THERE. WHO READS MY BLOGS..AND STILL DONT GET THE HIT..LET ME PUT IT STRAIGHT AND SIMPLE.. ME A PEVERT..( and dont blame me for this.. that ka monay spoiled me)

And the other day, when my mom was leaving for India.. relatives asked me.. wont u miss .. ???

I am like..missin someone..makes u so vinerable to the game of life.. thats where the fuckup happens.. I mean..

Life dosent have to be arollercoaster..where people take the same route..same screams..and stuff like that ..Its an experience .. where u can deal with it ..( in a wider.. viewpoint that is)

Break free from the normal.. 21 inch viewpoint and get into the 62 inch .. viewpoint..why marry..when u can live in.. why ponder about relationship.. when ther are other ways .. Guys can stay as friends..and stillget what they want,

Fallin in love.. makes u so insecure..some call it the true meaning of love.. ..well in that case.. these some..people.. .. do they run . computer and internet..stuff without a Antivirus.. well.. they dont..because..runing it without a .. a virus scanner..is like foolishness..and see my point.. love makes u insecure..( nopes.. that para wasnt an advert of any Anti virus Schemes)

But yes,, eventually one has to give up..get married..fuck like chinks.. raise rugrats... well its all Life as they may say..and thoughts will always remain as words..

Wacks!!

so there we are.. Ok.. Like all other Blogs.. I written.. this one is goin to be worse.. AND FOR a change I have a reason to do so. I am menatally and physically tierd... .. drained.. I shud have had a Red Bull before , i left for Work..

damm days are getin shorter.. and the nites..longer... dammm!! is it because ... winter has crept in. Kinda 2 lazy to get out of the house.. forget the house.. getin off the bed would be a big achievement. No playin football these days.. but yes.. rarely do miss a man united match on tele!!!!

I was thinkin..since i have no other thing to do .. Cant believe falling in love is so difficult ... for me.. I mean.. I have patience for everythin else in the world.. but to spend some time with the opposite sex.. na!!! its kinda boring!!!

kinda work is getin hit on me.. kinda .. sinc ethe dumbos are all off vactaion..and more responsibilty has fallen on2 me.. which is somethin.. yeeeeeeeeee.. I dont like to take.. And over that .. forced marriage is another responsibilty.. I pay millions to refuse.

Looks like.. times runing out..and the marriage scene mite eventually play its game against me.. Most probably.. before july.. I would be forced to change my status from Single to Married in Orkut. ..Kinda a big step.. .( though I have plans to make it fun... Wicked..Aint it )

damm.. why aint i in good mood to pen scraps.. or blogs....

age getinb square with me

worthless meanings of complicated ..simple nothings!!1

.. December 1sT.. World Aids day.. are they one of those Archies and Halmarks traditional custum made days.. wonder.. how wud one feel .. if someone goes up to an Aids patient and wish him.. Happy Aids day..lol.. That wud be .. satisfyin thought to keep u laughing... ( Atleast I am ..)

Ok.. Lying at work.. tryin to keep myslef awake.. its been 24 hours with no proper sleep.. sun runied my sleep in the morning... and then the football match.. that drained my energy and back to work.. I know.. I am working hard to make ends meet..lol


Atleast the best part is.. the time ticking away.. just 2 hours and 21 minutes to get my arse off work!!!

So, there we are!!!!damm..2 tierd to type

The art of Living

Art of Living

Listening to the tunes of Ar Rahman, I lie awake at work..Call it hard work or..........( Just because I am monitored by the CCTV.. )..

Taking some time out of my normal life to refect.. Whats been wrong ..whats happening around. Just saw this Documentary.. Fahrenheit9/11... And my dislike to a particluar territory has increased by integral margin.

The other day, I was geting on to my car. and some kid comes and asks for money for his Uncle who was unwell and hospitlaized.. .. Situations like this, can make u think for some time, refecting how bad it wud be if u didnt help him, or how cud u even waste ur time here. Then , come to think, the governmnet hospitals are free in Kuwait, and were good. How come, then. Situations like this can make a man loose his trust on others. But, THats the state of mankind.

I used to hate Bengalis .. and .. Tamilians.. Dont know, somethin about them.. is What i hated most.. strange. I used to hate some people from college, but i can see the change in me. By being patient and giving them time to improve has really helped. I mean.. everyone deserves a chance.

I just saw a couple.. newly wed, though they did look like beavis and butt-head.. Serioulsy, I would call the guy the Butt head.. part.. Though they were smiling, and I was like. No way.. They shud be faking it.. How can marriage bring happiness..lol.. Or maybe they were practising, how they smiled before geting married.. hmmm!!!!! or maybe.. Makes me think,, if marriage cud bring happiness... I doubt so!! lets these doubts stay untouched and real for the time being

And I fell in love with gal.. and kinda.. my mate was like saying tell that u love her. and i was.. like.. lol.. be realistic.. lady.. How many indian movies have u seen where the gal is told by the boy.... in the first sight.. I mean after ..some melodrama.. misunderstanding.. then .. its comes to love.. Then I dont have time for that .. and moreover she a Hindu.. SO .. I rather stick to my game.. football... Lol.. Love.. crap!!!!

December has come,,, alas,. missing the snow.. cold weather.. the drenchy rain.. those walks in the garden.. damm!! And now xmas.. and new year.. Hyped up festivals. .... Mallus.. exhibit their celebration to a cause.. by having the same dish.. every year.. and .. kind a.. ..xmas trees.. bah!!!

Its easy to put them up.. I meant..xmas trees,, getin em down after the season is like a pain. And then .. its kinda..moody ..

I mean.. all I do worth mentioning.. in xmas. when I am with family is..church..eat and sleep.

Thats ..xmas for me .. I guess. and for sure.. I know this cud be the last one,where i wont be having a ring on my finger.. not that the gal is finalized.lol....Its just that .. thought that creeps and gives me a scare.. damm!!1 how did the last 28 years pass me so fast .

But seriously the matrimonial thing is cool and funny..

After filtering all the reasons.. and stuff. i believe . I lie between 2 main .. points that.....

1). The gal I like which comes in alliance... folks dislikes em

2).. the gal .. and family and... tradition..and .. bah bah.. folks like.. I hate em ..

SO its kinda no win.. no win situation!!!!!

Anyways. these days.. I spend so less time . online chatin..is a great time.. and Sleep has been great.. Have been, torturing me with excess football.. and music.. lie awake and think.. how wud be my teams performance next match...

Anyways that been cool!!!!

I guess.. thats more of living part.... ....... ..... .... .... .... ...

Sometimes.. u need to sleep.. to dream!!!

Or maybe a great idea.. tell folks I like that gal.. and they go to india... which leaves me like .. home alone... Wicked aint it!!!