Just a poem !!!! .........(yawn)

Moonlit.... after a sunny day...

chilly memories...

Talk about the Sunset..

kept company by a smoke....

of a firelit warmth.

Guess...Like always,

Found out late,

Love hidden in shadows...Of Ego.
Hopeless dreams comes true,

It haunts ...could it be,

just let another one pass by.
Can let tears rule ,

Aint worth the dirt,

But then.. Sometimes..One has to give up,

Will it happen...
Memories of her smiles,

smiles of her schedules,

irritated by her silence,

guess... tried to hard not to make it happen,

when all the way I knew,

This could be special.

saw me walkaway,

It could have been....

Saw her walkaway,

It should have been...

Not trying what to do,

Falling Apart,..

.........is the best I do.
Picked by the thorns of roses,

standing in rain.. filled with unseen tears.. as always....

Can see me angry .. But calm.

Heart breaks ....

days after the storms gone mild.
They say...

You need more than beautiful heart...

To smell the beauty around you..

They say...You need more than a beautiful heart...

To let go.. the feeling...

that you actually fell in love.

Guess... Its back to the drawing Board,

dream..experience...

The pain of leting go..and...

Silence of victory of a trophyless game.

Sometimes... U just realize...

Sorry can never always be Perfect!!!:-)

And...

Tomorrow..... all will be forgotten.. I hope

Lol... Its been long time, Since I written shit like these.. rocking aint it.. Hmm Maybe I should write more of these..
The first and last poem ( if u can call that...... ) of 2006.. FRom the house of !!Immsy!!!!

Booo.... its really true

Clap..cheers... ta mate...My fans.. cant let em down.

Well, I was so kinda bored..so thought of messing the entire thing up.

Thought of many things, That i could.. write..like the

1)The alliances that rejected me

2) the allainces that I rejected

3) The alliances that rejected me before I cud reject

4) the alliances i rejected, before they could reject me

Well, i EVEN thought of pening down the names of the people involved.. but my pal.. ka monay...told me not to .. as it mite incidently hurt their feelings.. But at that point of moment.. the thought that came to mind.. was.. How do I care?... But, then with all due respect, Dont want to do messy stuffs..like that.

So.. bro and mom gone to india.. and from kanyakumari to the other end of kerala..whichever state that may be.. they would be huntin down the gals for me.. Poor.. Veerapan..mite envy me on that !!!..and even enter negotiations with the alliances that I am supposed to meet..Lol Indian marriages..isnt that fun.. expecially when u go for an arranged one..

So, The festive season has crash landed... well, I am weaing a scarf around my neck.. quite wierd.. though.. but hey its good stuff from a designer wear.

Now,.. There is somethin I want to share with me, since these blogs are usually read by me..most of the times.

I have been thinkin of love,, as in winder perspective of things.. Since i got the 42 inch plasma..all my views have now been seen in a wider range, which is good....

SO, yes.. lately, I have been getin this nasty feeling that .. I can actually love someone other than me.. its just that thought at the back of my head.. that keeps on saying.. Love.. hmm!!!( it brings out of the equation.. if u take out sex out of love... will u love .. quite debatable.. but lets leave that topic for another time)....

All these years., either I got dumped.. before the process eventually started..or I dumped gals.. because I got bored of em.... the last one.. I guess. was.. like .. 16 months.. I guess!!!which is 2 long ...and that ..2 16 months..because we lived in 2 diffrent countries.. well.. the closed of timespan.. when both the individuals were in one place..was like.. 1 month or so.. I mean..who wud give up pleasures of life like football.. and alcoholism.. to be with theones they love... ..unless the gal was an alcoholic.. in ehich case.. I was never lucky in that angle.

So there u go.. and these days mom..suspects me of breaking up alliances..wierd.. its easy though.. but na.. cudnt get ..into those matters of.. fun.

Anyways...so Like i was sayin..love..yes!!! its quite nice a feeling.. I mean.. yday .. i saw this cute dog..,and it was nice.. sorry..ok!! will get serious.. Now.. I suspect I mite have 2 make that 3-4 days trip..if some stupid gal,..says yes .. damm1! dont these gals who come as an alliance read my Blogs..

OK..IF THERE ARE DUMB GALS OUT THERE. WHO READS MY BLOGS..AND STILL DONT GET THE HIT..LET ME PUT IT STRAIGHT AND SIMPLE.. ME A PEVERT..( and dont blame me for this.. that ka monay spoiled me)

And the other day, when my mom was leaving for India.. relatives asked me.. wont u miss .. ???

I am like..missin someone..makes u so vinerable to the game of life.. thats where the fuckup happens.. I mean..

Life dosent have to be arollercoaster..where people take the same route..same screams..and stuff like that ..Its an experience .. where u can deal with it ..( in a wider.. viewpoint that is)

Break free from the normal.. 21 inch viewpoint and get into the 62 inch .. viewpoint..why marry..when u can live in.. why ponder about relationship.. when ther are other ways .. Guys can stay as friends..and stillget what they want,

Fallin in love.. makes u so insecure..some call it the true meaning of love.. ..well in that case.. these some..people.. .. do they run . computer and internet..stuff without a Antivirus.. well.. they dont..because..runing it without a .. a virus scanner..is like foolishness..and see my point.. love makes u insecure..( nopes.. that para wasnt an advert of any Anti virus Schemes)

But yes,, eventually one has to give up..get married..fuck like chinks.. raise rugrats... well its all Life as they may say..and thoughts will always remain as words..

Wacks!!

so there we are.. Ok.. Like all other Blogs.. I written.. this one is goin to be worse.. AND FOR a change I have a reason to do so. I am menatally and physically tierd... .. drained.. I shud have had a Red Bull before , i left for Work..

damm days are getin shorter.. and the nites..longer... dammm!! is it because ... winter has crept in. Kinda 2 lazy to get out of the house.. forget the house.. getin off the bed would be a big achievement. No playin football these days.. but yes.. rarely do miss a man united match on tele!!!!

I was thinkin..since i have no other thing to do .. Cant believe falling in love is so difficult ... for me.. I mean.. I have patience for everythin else in the world.. but to spend some time with the opposite sex.. na!!! its kinda boring!!!

kinda work is getin hit on me.. kinda .. sinc ethe dumbos are all off vactaion..and more responsibilty has fallen on2 me.. which is somethin.. yeeeeeeeeee.. I dont like to take.. And over that .. forced marriage is another responsibilty.. I pay millions to refuse.

Looks like.. times runing out..and the marriage scene mite eventually play its game against me.. Most probably.. before july.. I would be forced to change my status from Single to Married in Orkut. ..Kinda a big step.. .( though I have plans to make it fun... Wicked..Aint it )

damm.. why aint i in good mood to pen scraps.. or blogs....

age getinb square with me

worthless meanings of complicated ..simple nothings!!1

.. December 1sT.. World Aids day.. are they one of those Archies and Halmarks traditional custum made days.. wonder.. how wud one feel .. if someone goes up to an Aids patient and wish him.. Happy Aids day..lol.. That wud be .. satisfyin thought to keep u laughing... ( Atleast I am ..)

Ok.. Lying at work.. tryin to keep myslef awake.. its been 24 hours with no proper sleep.. sun runied my sleep in the morning... and then the football match.. that drained my energy and back to work.. I know.. I am working hard to make ends meet..lol


Atleast the best part is.. the time ticking away.. just 2 hours and 21 minutes to get my arse off work!!!

So, there we are!!!!damm..2 tierd to type

The art of Living

Art of Living

Listening to the tunes of Ar Rahman, I lie awake at work..Call it hard work or..........( Just because I am monitored by the CCTV.. )..

Taking some time out of my normal life to refect.. Whats been wrong ..whats happening around. Just saw this Documentary.. Fahrenheit9/11... And my dislike to a particluar territory has increased by integral margin.

The other day, I was geting on to my car. and some kid comes and asks for money for his Uncle who was unwell and hospitlaized.. .. Situations like this, can make u think for some time, refecting how bad it wud be if u didnt help him, or how cud u even waste ur time here. Then , come to think, the governmnet hospitals are free in Kuwait, and were good. How come, then. Situations like this can make a man loose his trust on others. But, THats the state of mankind.

I used to hate Bengalis .. and .. Tamilians.. Dont know, somethin about them.. is What i hated most.. strange. I used to hate some people from college, but i can see the change in me. By being patient and giving them time to improve has really helped. I mean.. everyone deserves a chance.

I just saw a couple.. newly wed, though they did look like beavis and butt-head.. Serioulsy, I would call the guy the Butt head.. part.. Though they were smiling, and I was like. No way.. They shud be faking it.. How can marriage bring happiness..lol.. Or maybe they were practising, how they smiled before geting married.. hmmm!!!!! or maybe.. Makes me think,, if marriage cud bring happiness... I doubt so!! lets these doubts stay untouched and real for the time being

And I fell in love with gal.. and kinda.. my mate was like saying tell that u love her. and i was.. like.. lol.. be realistic.. lady.. How many indian movies have u seen where the gal is told by the boy.... in the first sight.. I mean after ..some melodrama.. misunderstanding.. then .. its comes to love.. Then I dont have time for that .. and moreover she a Hindu.. SO .. I rather stick to my game.. football... Lol.. Love.. crap!!!!

December has come,,, alas,. missing the snow.. cold weather.. the drenchy rain.. those walks in the garden.. damm!! And now xmas.. and new year.. Hyped up festivals. .... Mallus.. exhibit their celebration to a cause.. by having the same dish.. every year.. and .. kind a.. ..xmas trees.. bah!!!

Its easy to put them up.. I meant..xmas trees,, getin em down after the season is like a pain. And then .. its kinda..moody ..

I mean.. all I do worth mentioning.. in xmas. when I am with family is..church..eat and sleep.

Thats ..xmas for me .. I guess. and for sure.. I know this cud be the last one,where i wont be having a ring on my finger.. not that the gal is finalized.lol....Its just that .. thought that creeps and gives me a scare.. damm!!1 how did the last 28 years pass me so fast .

But seriously the matrimonial thing is cool and funny..

After filtering all the reasons.. and stuff. i believe . I lie between 2 main .. points that.....

1). The gal I like which comes in alliance... folks dislikes em

2).. the gal .. and family and... tradition..and .. bah bah.. folks like.. I hate em ..

SO its kinda no win.. no win situation!!!!!

Anyways. these days.. I spend so less time . online chatin..is a great time.. and Sleep has been great.. Have been, torturing me with excess football.. and music.. lie awake and think.. how wud be my teams performance next match...

Anyways that been cool!!!!

I guess.. thats more of living part.... ....... ..... .... .... .... ...

Sometimes.. u need to sleep.. to dream!!!

Or maybe a great idea.. tell folks I like that gal.. and they go to india... which leaves me like .. home alone... Wicked aint it!!!

Football Focus - NOVEMBER

Wednesday, 29 November 2006
Aston Villa
1-3(HT 0-2)
Man City
McCann 66

Vassell 18Barton 32Distin 75
Bookings:Barry 82

Bolton
0-1(HT 0-1)
Chelsea

Ballack 45
Bookings:Campo 34Faye 45Nolan 89

Bookings:Carvalho 40
Fulham
2-1(HT 2-1)
Arsenal
McBride 6Radzinski 19

Van Persie 36
Bookings:Brown 31Rosenior 36Helguson 82Boa Morte 82

Bookings:Song Billong 25Senderos 40Rosicky 43Van Persie 71Flamini 82

Sent off:Senderos 66
Liverpool
0-0(HT 0-0)
Portsmouth
Bookings:Pennant 70

Bookings:Hughes 75Thompson 76Pamarot 90
Man Utd
3-0(HT 1-0)
Everton
Ronaldo 39Evra 63O'Shea 89

Bookings:Evra 61

Bookings:Arteta 71
Tuesday, 28 November 2006
Watford
0-1(HT 0-0)
Sheff Utd

Webber 88
Bookings:Mahon 16Henderson 63Powell 87

Bookings:Kozluk 33
Sent off:Powell 90

Sunday, 26 November 2006
Man Utd
1-1(HT 1-0)
Chelsea
Saha 29

Carvalho 69
Bookings:Carrick 55

Bookings:Makelele 21Drogba 36Cole 85
Newcastle
1-0(HT 0-0)
Portsmouth
Sibierski 69

Bookings:Bramble 63Solano 82

Bookings:Thompson 37Stefanovic 43
Tottenham
3-1(HT 2-1)
Wigan
Defoe 43Berbatov 44Lennon 90

Camara 25
Bookings:Zokora 58Dawson 71

Bookings:Boyce 8Baines 33Heskey 56Skoko 77
Saturday, 25 November 2006
Aston Villa
1-1(HT 1-1)
Middlesbrough
Barry (pen) 45

Christie 43
Bookings:Barry 37

Bookings:Schwarzer 45Pogatetz 56Huth 61
Bolton
3-1(HT 2-1)
Arsenal
Faye 9Anelka 45Anelka 76

Silva 45
Bookings:Davies 21Fortune 38Campo 59

Bookings:Ljungberg 25Lehmann 30Senderos 60Toure 64
Charlton
1-1(HT 0-0)
Everton
Reid 68

Hreidarsson o.g. 52
Bookings:Hreidarsson 48El Karkouri 75

Fulham
0-1(HT 0-1)
Reading

Doyle (pen) 17

Bookings:Harper 39Ingimarsson 45Sonko 50
Sent off:Pearce 16

Liverpool
1-0(HT 0-0)
Man City
Gerrard 67

Bookings:Luis Garcia 39Carragher 64

Bookings:Thatcher 44
West Ham
1-0(HT 1-0)
Sheff Utd
Mullins 36

Bookings:Mullins 83Bowyer 86

Bookings:Montgomery 29Hulse 58Gillespie 58Kozluk 66
Sunday, 19 November 2006
Blackburn
1-1(HT 1-0)
Tottenham
Kerimoglu 23

Defoe (pen) 62

Bookings:Mido 27
Sent off:Kerimoglu 60

Sent off:Ghaly 90
Wigan
0-0(HT 0-0)
Aston Villa
Bookings:Jackson 72

Saturday, 18 November 2006
Arsenal
1-1(HT 0-1)
Newcastle
Henry 70

Dyer 30
Bookings:Fabregas 76Gallas 90

Bookings:Duff 28Taylor 70Bramble 87N'Zogbia 90Given 90
Chelsea
1-0(HT 1-0)
West Ham
Geremi 22

Bookings:Lampard 18

Bookings:Gabbidon 21Reo-Coker 68Mullins 71Tevez 74
Everton
1-0(HT 0-0)
Bolton
Arteta 60

Bookings:Neville 19Anichebe 86Johnson 88

Man City
3-1(HT 3-0)
Fulham
Corradi 12Corradi 32Barton 45

John 62
Bookings:Thatcher 53

Bookings:Volz 45
Middlesbrough
0-0(HT 0-0)
Liverpool
Portsmouth
2-1(HT 1-1)
Watford
Kanu 44LuaLua (pen) 89

DeMerit 32
Bookings:Thompson 14

Bookings:Stewart 45DeMerit 89Priskin 90
Reading
2-0(HT 1-0)
Charlton
Ki-Hyeon 18Doyle 72


Bookings:Fortune 44Rommedahl 58Hreidarsson 84
Sheff Utd
1-2(HT 1-1)
Man Utd
Gillespie 13

Rooney 30Rooney 75
Bookings:Gillespie 45

Bookings:Giggs 26
Sunday, 12 November 2006
Arsenal
3-0(HT 1-0)
Liverpool
Flamini 41Toure 56Gallas 80

Bookings:Van Persie 2Flamini 41

Bookings:Carragher 33Alonso 68Pennant 77
Reading
3-1(HT 2-1)
Tottenham
Shorey 38Sidwell 45Doyle 79

Keane (pen) 24
Bookings:Ki-Hyeon 52

Bookings:Jenas 89
Saturday, 11 November 2006
Blackburn
0-1(HT 0-0)
Man Utd

Saha 64
Bookings:Mokoena 51McCarthy 60Peter 90Khizanishvili 90

Bookings:Vidic 45Rooney 45Evra 50
Chelsea
4-0(HT 2-0)
Watford
Drogba 27Drogba 36Shevchenko 52Drogba 69

Bookings:Ballack 40

Bookings:Doyley 45
Everton
0-1(HT 0-1)
Aston Villa

Sutton 42
Bookings:Stubbs 30Carsley 75

Bookings:McCann 5Angel 28Mellberg 87
Man City
0-0(HT 0-0)
Newcastle
Bookings:Sinclair 49

Bookings:Parker 37Taylor 47Emre 71
Middlesbrough
1-0(HT 0-0)
West Ham
Maccarone 74

Bookings:Maccarone 77

Bookings:Collins 17Spector 54Benayoun 73
Portsmouth
1-1(HT 0-0)
Fulham
Cole 74

Knight 57

Bookings:Knight 45Niemi 64Queudrue 85
Sheff Utd
2-2(HT 0-1)
Bolton
Hulse 70Kazim-Richards 73

Diouf 34Davies 59
Bookings:Morgan 42

Bookings:Meite 90
Wigan
3-2(HT 2-0)
Charlton
McCulloch 13Camara 41Jackson 78

Bent 90De Zeeuw o.g. 52
Bookings:Scharner 35Cotterill 40

Sunday, 05 November 2006
Aston Villa
2-0(HT 1-0)
Blackburn
Barry (pen) 41Angel 51

Bookings:Sutton 59

Bookings:Ooijer 40Khizanishvili 43Mokoena 65
Tottenham
2-1(HT 1-1)
Chelsea
Dawson 25Lennon 52

Makelele 15
Bookings:Dawson 17Ghaly 55King 78

Bookings:Paulo Ferreira 25Makelele 45Cole 45Terry 63Ballack 67

Sent off:Terry 72
West Ham
1-0(HT 0-0)
Arsenal
Harewood 89

Bookings:Spector 19Benayoun 83Harewood 90

Bookings:Clichy 30Van Persie 42
Saturday, 04 November 2006
Bolton
0-1(HT 0-0)
Wigan

McCulloch 79
Bookings:Davies 45

Bookings:Kilbane 50Landzaat 90
Charlton
1-0(HT 1-0)
Man City
Bent 28

Bookings:El Karkouri 67

Bookings:Thatcher 77Vassell 83
Fulham
1-0(HT 0-0)
Everton
Jensen 66


Bookings:Neville 38
Liverpool
2-0(HT 1-0)
Reading
Kuyt 14Kuyt 73


Bookings:Sidwell 53Sodje 64
Man Utd
3-0(HT 2-0)
Portsmouth
Saha (pen) 3Ronaldo 10Vidic 66


Bookings:Davis 44
Newcastle
0-1(HT 0-0)
Sheff Utd

Webber 68
Bookings:Carr 74Babayaro 85Moore 78

Bookings:Davis 39Hulse 75
Watford
2-0(HT 1-0)
Middlesbrough
Woodgate o.g. 6Young 60

Bookings:Young 87

Bookings:Woodgate 79

Another Month.. And Same Leader.. Manchester United still lead the race .. by 3 points.

Highligths..defintely the game against cheslea..where they outplayed them first half and got outplayed in the second half.. Match drawn..
And arsenal. feels the pressure hangin on ..as defeats roll on..Bolton.. thanks to Anelka and Fulham.. ..
Same can be said of Spurs as well.. Though Liverpool aint any diffrent.

The gap has been extended.. Now its like8 points diffrence with the third place team and the second.. Guess the title is now ,, to be decided with christams loomin on 2 teams Manchester United and Chelsea.

Oh .. holy me

Oh Holy me.. Just when I thought .. I could get some nice sleep..when there is gap between shifts.. there comes another alliance..

Dosent anyone understand.. How hard One has to try to spoil stuffs around.. And whoever said destroying things were easy... was out of his mind..

As, I understand it.. there are certain rules to follow.... when tryin to break allainces

1) Make sure your orkut scrap book has so many bad things about u.. Its not a valid point.. but it cud help.

2) Make sure.. u try to spoil the alliance...and try avoiding 2 many chat sessions.. .. because the problem that happens.. is that u mite actulaly start thinking.. This relation can actually work..which is total deviance from the track u are supposed to be on.

3) Make sure that u have no one else on ur mind.. thESE days..when u keep consistently sayin no to alliances.. people ..or rather parents keep buggin u on the reality front.. that .. U either gay or.. u have arelationship goin on.. And how ever hard u try to convince em.. marriage is all about repsonsibilty and 4 out of 4 married people have stated.. if givena chance they wud correct their mistake.. by not marryin.... wont even convince em

4) Fall in love..its good shit.. for a time period.. of less than a day..more than that .. U cud be hurting urslef.. Baically taxin ur self.

5) Make sure, if nothin works.. abuse the gals folks in a nice way..and if she thinks thats funny.. make sure.. u claim that it wasnt a joke.

6) When u meet the gal for the first time, eventually one has to go thru these situation, make sure u highlightt ur bad points.. which is not that difficult rite.. or maybe.. when she brings u the coffee.. .. throw down the coffee..and sayits a bad sign..

7).. Best thing.ask for a trial.. live in relationship.. which is sure shot winner.. if that goes against u ..then,...All i can say.dont blame me

8)Make sure u smell of smoke.and bit of rum.when u go to see the gal..

I mean..if all this doesnt work.. I wud suggest marry the gal.. because its looks like to be a despearte now in situation goin on .

So its Manchester United v Chelsea this sunday.. and only a tru football fan can know what importance it brings ..as the season reached half point. Both teams look to be in good nick of form, if you minus the European cup defeats. If man u nited play the normal way.. I DONT see em losing. As per the goal ratio and style is concerned.. I guess its goin to be more of a midfield game.. and chances missed.

A draw could only mean, the other teams cathcin up in the league.. a win. for chelsea. also helps the other team catchin up.. but a win for manchester United.. gives them a 2 match.. lead.. in points.. for a heavy christmas schedule.

Thats football news!!!!

Well.. I guess now, the only company at work would be my Blogs.. I havent written any for ages.. so venturing out topics.. maybe here and there. bits of articles about me.. cud keep the bloggin part of me alive.

Ok, Now I know, I would have to go home,and tomorrow, was expecting a clean rest day.. a dear ol day in my bed.. but I know.. I would be looking at the alliances.. so that my folks could atleast make a small step.. which wud be considerred as a big step for em ......

I mean.. How much shud i do in a daily basis for gals to hate me.. its just a gift.. and masterminding such a gift everytime.. makes it lose its value.

Its kinda strange at time.. how romantic couple tease u .. tellin.. Immsy u need someone to sit with u..enjoy a movie..maybe eat with u while u eat , move around, someone to annoy u. I mean.. in romantic terms.. so shite .. I mean.. for all that I just have to buy a Dog..It does all the time.. AND IF U are angry with the dog.. all u need to do is throw it from the window.. noone asks u anythin.. bUT IF u throw out a woman.. the whole world asks u .. whats the hell. I mean. I DONT see any diffrence though!!!!

Yes.. Its been ages since I DID some shoping.. I know.. I am there.. my pockets are itching.. so there u go.. I need to buy me some winter clothes.. the reason being its winter.. what a good reason for a great occassion.

Or maybe lie lazy at bed.. and watch re runs of Braveheart. beautiful mind or Gladiator.. which wud still do justice.. I would say !!!

As the saying goes.. NEVER TRUST A MALLU BY READING THE MALAYALAM MANORAMA....

the same applies..

Never Judge me by my blogs..Its just a burkha above my skin..

tada

My Life as as Immsy

way past bedtime, i lie awake with somethin disturbin me... Not that such a matter shud ever arise ..!!

Anyways these days, I get disturbed by the stupid parents of gals..callin and tryin to talk to me directly.. I need to do somethin about it.. Guess I should sleep more!

Anyways.. am at work.. and trying to get the time done over with it by blog'n. Its been quite sometime, that I did write rubbish!

Thats my table at one end of the room where..more than chat.. I download Movies..Music.. and read read read.. Footballl!!

Ok.. where was I ?

Far away.. somethin so close.. light years back..come to haunt me. Was it my mistakes.. Who am I to blame myself!!! Sometimes, the worst mistakes can be long forgotten...Its just the small ones that come to haunt you.

The more I Loathe.. Love.. .. The more close it grips.. me to. And , Trying to hide and run away from it, I end up consolin the arms of Love.. Which is not exactly the equation, i like to position myself in.

People tell, me there is more to life than football.. And i Understand their position. I mean they end up saying that statement to every sense of life. Well, You dont get through jobs,, they say,. there is more 2 life that that.. I mean.. Why can we.. run for the things we need.. and instead of looking at an option of losing it.. look out of what u intend to do with it . Optisimism.. is not right, when too much is on stake,. But sometimes, It is good.. if one looks at what he wants from Life.

Today,, MET one of my juniors from college.. relived years.. and the position I see myself,, I cant even think That I was that imms from colllege.. some call it maturity.. kinda.. dont believe in that word.. I mean.. I can see myself more of imms.. in the chat sessions and more in the football field.. other than that ,, I see my life living in the shades of things.

Ok, I was creative,.and now.. ALL i know is the spelling of that .. ..

There are very few people that can make me smile.. very few!!!

Friends..lol.. found out the meaning of them... dont know , if i am right.. but the meaning of trust and togetherness is lost..,,,,

Become more patient.. giving chances to people who made mistakes.. kinda.. maybe they not bad.. maybe they have evolved with times.

These thoughts are so centerred to myself.. so why not blog it.. maybe .. years from now, I mite look at it and have the laughs.. and maybe have the answers as well.. Maybe try to recollect..who were the people. I actually Liked... loved.. or who made me laugh !!!!!:-)

PHONE RINGS.. BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP,...( ANOTHER one added to my missed call lists..)

Football Focus-October!!!

Monday, 30 October 2006
Man City
1-0(HT 1-0)
Middlesbrough
Dunne 23

Bookings:Dickov 62Barton 66

Bookings:Pogatetz 58Huth 62Rochemback 67Boateng 81
Sunday, 29 October 2006
West Ham
2-1(HT 1-0)
Blackburn
Sheringham 21Mullins 80

Bentley 90
Bookings:McCartney 23

Bookings:Peter 59
Saturday, 28 October 2006
Arsenal
1-1(HT 0-1)
Everton
Van Persie 71

Cahill 11
Bookings:Gallas 24Fabregas 78

Bookings:Arteta 24Osman 60
Bolton
0-4(HT 0-2)
Man Utd

Rooney 10Rooney 16Ronaldo 82Rooney 89
Bookings:Davies 53Ben Haim 87

Bookings:Scholes 77O'Shea 84
Fulham
0-1(HT 0-0)
Wigan

Camara 83
Bookings:Knight 75

Bookings:De Zeeuw 77Scharner 82
Liverpool
3-1(HT 3-0)
Aston Villa
Kuyt 31Crouch 38Luis Garcia 44

Agbonlahor 56

Bookings:Mellberg 31
Newcastle
0-0(HT 0-0)
Charlton
Bookings:Babayaro 90

Bookings:Faye 33
Portsmouth
3-1(HT 1-0)
Reading
Gunnarsson o.g. 10Kanu 53Pedro Mendes 66

Doyle 84
Sheff Utd
0-2(HT 0-1)
Chelsea

Lampard 43Ballack 49
Bookings:Leigertwood 42Montgomery 60

Watford
0-0(HT 0-0)
Tottenham
Bookings:DeMerit 48Bouazza 49Mahon 87

Bookings:Jenas 82
Sunday, 22 October 2006
Blackburn
0-1(HT 0-0)
Bolton

Campo 62
Bookings:Savage 14Neill 80

Bookings:Fortune 64Nolan 89

Sent off:Nolan 90
Man Utd
2-0(HT 1-0)
Liverpool
Scholes 39Ferdinand 66

Bookings:Vidic 69

Bookings:Sissoko 27Finnan 76Crouch 77
Middlesbrough
1-0(HT 0-0)
Newcastle
Yakubu 85

Bookings:Rochemback 77Maccarone 89

Reading
0-4(HT 0-2)
Arsenal

Henry 1Hleb 39Van Persie 50Henry (pen) 70
Tottenham
1-0(HT 1-0)
West Ham
Mido 45

Bookings:Defoe 44Mido 45Davids 86

Bookings:Konchesky 33Mascherano 43Harewood 45Pantsil 90
Saturday, 21 October 2006
Aston Villa
1-1(HT 1-1)
Fulham
Barry (pen) 26

Volz 45

Bookings:Knight 25Queudrue 74
Charlton
0-0(HT 0-0)
Watford
Bookings:Holland 81Bent 85

Chelsea
2-1(HT 0-0)
Portsmouth
Shevchenko 55Ballack 57

Mwaruwari 69
Bookings:Shevchenko 56Ballack 58Cole 90

Bookings:Pamarot 43Pedro Mendes 51
Everton
2-0(HT 2-0)
Sheff Utd
Arteta 13Beattie (pen) 33


Bookings:Tonge 77

Sent off:Davis 32
Wigan
4-0(HT 2-0)
Man City
Heskey 2Dunne o.g. 5Camara 65Valencia 67

Bookings:Webster 53

Bookings:Hamann 43
Monday, 16 October 2006
Fulham
2-1(HT 0-0)
Charlton
McBride 65Jensen 67

Bent 78
Bookings:Queudrue 56

Bookings:El Karkouri 12Young 66Reid 90
Sunday, 15 October 2006
Newcastle
1-2(HT 1-0)
Bolton
Ameobi (pen) 19

Diouf 55Diouf 57
Bookings:Solano 44Emre 72Moore 81

Bookings:Speed 60Diouf 72Nolan 90
Saturday, 14 October 2006
Arsenal
3-0(HT 2-0)
Watford
Stewart o.g. 33Henry 43Adebayor 67


Bookings:Smith 22
Aston Villa
1-1(HT 0-0)
Tottenham
Barry 81

Angel o.g. 76

Bookings:Ghaly 53

Sent off:Davenport 73
Liverpool
1-1(HT 0-1)
Blackburn
Bellamy 64

McCarthy 17
Bookings:Hyypia 79

Bookings:Bentley 28Neill 42Savage 58
Man City
0-0(HT 0-0)
Sheff Utd

Bookings:Jagielka 87
Middlesbrough
2-1(HT 1-0)
Everton
Yakubu (pen) 27Viduka 71

Cahill 77
Bookings:Cattermole 55

Portsmouth
2-0(HT 1-0)
West Ham
Kanu 24Cole 82

Bookings:O'Neil 17Campbell 65Pedro Mendes 73Johnson 75

Bookings:Reo-Coker 22Sheringham 26Etherington 43Konchesky 76
Reading
0-1(HT 0-1)
Chelsea

Ingimarsson o.g. 45
Bookings:Ingimarsson 29Sonko 45Bikey 77

Bookings:Obi 44Terry 53
Sent off:Bikey 83

Sent off:Obi 62
Wigan
1-3(HT 1-0)
Man Utd
Baines 5

Vidic 62Saha 66Solskjaer 90

Bookings:Ferdinand 28O'Shea 40
Monday, 02 October 2006
Watford
3-3(HT 1-0)
Fulham
King 23Young 45Young 89

McBride 71Helguson 83Francis o.g. 87
Bookings:Mahon 30

Bookings:Helguson 51Pearce 66Radzinski 73
Sunday, 01 October 2006
Blackburn
2-1(HT 1-1)
Wigan
Bentley 45McCarthy 81

Heskey 2
Bookings:Jeffers 29Ooijer 75Mokoena 85

Bookings:Scharner 20Kilbane 55Baines 58Landzaat 65
Man Utd
2-0(HT 1-0)
Newcastle
Solskjaer 41Solskjaer 49

Bookings:Scholes 42

Bookings:Parker 37Carr 53Taylor 71
Tottenham
2-1(HT 2-1)
Portsmouth
Murphy 2Defoe (pen) 35

Kanu 40
West Ham
0-1(HT 0-1)
Reading

Ki-Hyeon 2
Bookings:Cole 53Carroll 81Sheringham 90Konchesky 90

Bookings:Ki-Hyeon 67Long 87

So , another month comes to a close, and Manchester united on top.

will do the coments another day

World..religion..people!!!!!!

Sensitive topic, I would say.

Very recently, I had gone for this harvest festival of our church, and though the crowd was decent, it wasnt much of that great a hit compared to last time. This year , the church discarded the idea to bring in movie stars.. and stuck to a theme called Christanity.. I guess that could have been the reason for a low turnout. I am not being sarcastic here.

( Well, all i was doing there was hunting for chicks.. well.. none found.. ).

Ok.. so.. this year a new commitee was formed. and hence the old commitee fools didnt join in. I know couple of friends who stayed at home.. fair enough.. u dont get the attention, u stay at home.
And then I met this guy. who was all angry.. well.. complaints were he been working and screwin so hard.. for this functions.. and I was like..why take the trouble.. if u not enjoying it.

So there you go, isnt life funny. the very existence of people makes it more difficult.

Sometimes i wonder how many Thirumenis are there in our church( thirumenis.. high priest..dont know what exactly its called in english).. they come at major functions..not their fault..here one can see the power of money.. i mean.. gulf states endorse maximum high profile preists.. which is sad.. and every year they caollect so much money

for example.. churches in india are rennovated.. like for example..paramalla church.. so much money spend.. if half that amount was spend for orphans and poor people.. it wud have been justified.. ..

Then there is..committee members.. they take a long time to sanction offerings for the needy.. by that time.the needy wud be in his grave,, its sad. but thats the way world is run...

Now in Kuwait, there is like 2 areas.. salmiya and abbasiya.. abbasiya wud be known as mini kerala( a place where i wud not dare to put my feet in.. coz.. its so.. ..wont complete that).. and enemity runs thru,.what salmiya does.. abbasiya just wants to do it better.. fair enuf..

And most of the time during church services, u can see the commitee members in tea shops outside.. discussin.. what or how it shud be run..or most appropriately.. tey wud be talkin..why this sudden slump in Indian batting.

And then there are the females.. who flock in to show the latest designer wear sarees or jewelley.. ..its pathetic.. but hey.thats life.

And then there is concept that runs thru. that the other congreation is less god fearing that ones...Theres so much to laugh about..expecially during the matrimonial times.. they say.. marthomites is less god fearing that orthodox..or ..csi.. or..whatever..
but the very point is.. whats orthodox.. were they jacobite.. were they somethin else.. why so much confusion..

no , to their agreement, they would say..X..Y...Z... to claim and bring politics into the picture, which wud rest their arguments.

Politics and microphone are 2 things, you should never give a aMallu.. well,.if u do that mistake,,. u have no reason to be pardoned for!!!


The very essence of God is to be right in your path.. the very essence of religion is to crreate more harmony.... the very essence of mankind is .. to dwell in these principles.

But then there is always..more than one persons thoughts to this!!!

And to make matters worse.. younger generation are tarined to follow these principles..its sad..its just torments the faith.. its breaks off the values..Bible taught us,

I dont read the Bible.. nor do i do long lengthy prayers.. I dont pray for me.. .. but I stand on principles.. believed on virtue and patience.
and thats the most important thing you can have.. and a belief that God will do right..if you done the right thing.


I wonder what would be the situation in Heaven,,at the moment...

Even Judas would be ashamed.. seeing man kinds ethics go down the drain..

Is there hope.?????

Looking at the people that run the denomination.. I CAN only fear for the worst

blah blah blah...

Someone just reminded me that its been like.. 2 weeks that i actually write some nice bullshit.. well What can i do.. So many expectations from Fans around...

October has come.. mid way though.. When everyone will be enjoyin their break .. I will be working.. i MEAN minimum day offs for a normal man during Eid is like 4 days.. and I get .. None.

Now.. I need a kick in the back,( mind u .. not front ) for.. choosin career instead of sleep and fun.

These days.one gal goes around Orkuting....finding me.. i MEAN.. what a jerk she is.. I mean.. Now i have stalkers.. I mean.. LOOKING at her.. I would think twice .. .. nah! dont want to complete the statement.. why be rude in such a lovely 17nth of October.

Ok.. so whats new.
ya.. mgmt change.. and guess what .. I am still in the same position.. I guess, the only poistion change I am goin to get is thru marriage.. lol.

Suddenly the worlds turning against me.. sooner or later.. did I expect this though..winds of change... Folks getin this wierd factual thing on their head.. that I hack into their mail ids.. and send abuses to all the alliances that come thru.. Me!!!! out of everyone.. how cud i ever do that .. I mean.. cud be my bro..maybe he doesnt want me to spend money on anyone else other than him.. good chance,.( .. come to think of it. he dosent even know internet existed..)'

damm.. I am so moody.. maybe Lonely.. those typical syndromes that make u marry and then relaIZE.. u were tricked into those emotional mood swings.....

2 more hours. and me off home, can stick my arse on the chair..

I can believe I spend .. my day either at work or in bed.. waiting for downloads to get over..

And the worst thing is That I cant get a topic these days to write in the blog..is the world getin to b a much more sadder place than it is.. already.


I BEEM extracting the notion of love.. kind acreepy though.. Was thinkin Loves allrite.. noproblemo.. but marriage..is it necessary to marry the one u love..Does one have to go with the looks or brains.. though u dont get 2 of em in one go.. (" being gals.. which is a wide spread concept").. I am goin to be a MCP for sometime....

So am kind a confused there. and kinda thing. is that .. shud i go for it or wait..or maybe .. its just the lonely times that makes me wonder all this ( I know u are reading this.. and this is not u . its someone else)


Maybe I am getin 2 pissed off with everythin.. if i write ,.more.. I am goin to end up.. exposing myself.. which is not good... for ME atleast..

tada

Mallu Freak ( solo song for the new album.. came from Nowhere )

Not the ideal image.. but then.. me 2 lazy to get another one..

Its been like ages, that i got into this.. so maybe to kick start the writing stuff...this shud do justice


Mallu Freaks

( with all respect to Green day )

Don't wanna be an maaaaaalu Freak.
Don't want a state under the new political shit
.
And can you hear the sound of Shakeela?
The subliminal mindfuck Kerala
.
Welcome to a new kind of orgy.
All across the mallu nation.

Everything isn't meant to be okay.
Serial dreams of tomorrow.

We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
Well that's enough to argue.
Well maybe I'm the faggot MALLU.
I'm not a part of a communist agenda.

Now everybody do the rain dance.
And sing along in the age of big bust .

Welcome to a new kind of pelvic thrust.
All across the mallu nation.

Everything isn't meant to be okay.
Serial dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
Well that's enough to argue.


Don't wanna be an Freaky Mallu.
One State controlled by the Shakeela.

Gods own state of gossips.
It's going out to idiot malluland.
Welcome to a new kind of tension.
All across the mallu nation.
Everything isn't meant to be okay.
busty dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to play.

Football Focus - September 2006

, 01 October 2006
Blackburn
2-1(HT 1-1)
Wigan
D Bentley 45B McCarthy 81

E Heskey 2
Bookings:F Jeffers 29A Ooijer 75A Mokoena 85

Bookings:P Scharner 20K Kilbane 55L Baines 58D Landzaat 65
Man Utd
2-0(HT 1-0)
Newcastle
O Solskjaer 41O Solskjaer 49

Bookings:P Scholes 42

Bookings:S Parker 37S Carr 53S Taylor 71
Tottenham
2-1(HT 2-1)
Portsmouth
D Murphy 2J Defoe (pen) 35

N Kanu 40
West Ham
0-1(HT 0-1)
Reading

S Ki-Hyeon 2
Bookings:C Cole 53R Carroll 81T Sheringham 90P Konchesky 90

Bookings:S Ki-Hyeon 67S Long 87
Saturday, 30 September 2006
Bolton
2-0(HT 1-0)
Liverpool
G Speed 30I Campo 51

Bookings:A Faye 16G Speed 48

Bookings:P Crouch 74
Charlton
1-2(HT 1-1)
Arsenal
D Bent 21

R Van Persie 32R Van Persie 49
Bookings:H Hreidarsson 7K Lisbie 24J Hasselbaink 36R Kishishev 90

Bookings:R Van Persie 27F Fabregas 43K Toure 73J Hoyte 84
Chelsea
1-1(HT 1-1)
Aston Villa
D Drogba 3

G Agbonlahor 45

Bookings:G McCann 53O Mellberg 83
Everton
1-1(HT 1-0)
Man City
A Johnson 44

M Richards 90
Bookings:T Cahill 75JPS Nuno Valente 90

Bookings:J Barton 68T Sinclair 89
Sheff Utd
2-1(HT 1-0)
Middlesbrough
R Hulse 35P Jagielka 90

A Yakubu 49
Bookings:L Bromby 7

Bookings:J Woodgate 43L Cattermole 48F Rochemback 90
Monday, 25 September 2006
Portsmouth
0-1(HT 0-1)
Bolton

K Nolan 22
Bookings:M Taylor 56D Stefanovic 78

Bookings:I Campo 8T Ben Haim 54
Sunday, 24 September 2006
Newcastle
1-1(HT 1-1)
Everton
S Ameobi 14

T Cahill 41
Bookings:T Bramble 25B Emre 67

Bookings:T Cahill 6P Neville 54T Hibbert 63L Osman 90
Sent off:T Bramble 75

Sent off:T Hibbert 77
Saturday, 23 September 2006
Arsenal
3-0(HT 0-0)
Sheff Utd
W Gallas 65P Jagielka o.g. 69T Henry 81

Bookings:F Fabregas 30E Eboue 62

Bookings:R Hulse 48
Aston Villa
2-0(HT 1-0)
Charlton
G Agbonlahor 35L Moore 62


Bookings:A Faye 90
Fulham
0-2(HT 0-0)
Chelsea

F Lampard (pen) 73F Lampard 80
Bookings:M Volz 55F Queudrue 83

Bookings:AS Ricardo Carvalho 61
Liverpool
3-0(HT 0-0)
Tottenham
MDH Gonzalez 63D Kuyt 73J Riise 89

Bookings:S Hyypia 68

Man City
2-0(HT 0-0)
West Ham
G Samaras 50G Samaras 63

Middlesbrough
0-1(HT 0-1)
Blackburn

S Nonda 27
Bookings:J Euell 56

Bookings:K Tugay 22B McCarthy 48D Bentley 71
Reading
1-1(HT 0-0)
Man Utd
K Doyle (pen) 48

CdSA Ronaldo 73
Wigan
1-1(HT 1-0)
Watford
H Camara 29

H Bouazza 63
Bookings:AL Valencia 33H Camara 50

Bookings:M Mackay 81G Mahon 85
Wednesday, 20 September 2006
Liverpool
2-0(HT 1-0)
Newcastle
D Kuyt 29XO Alonso 79

Bookings:S Luis Garcia 49

Bookings:C Moore 62
Sunday, 17 September 2006
Blackburn
4-2(HT 2-2)
Man City
T Sinclair o.g. 18M Pedersen 44B McCarthy 66P Gallagher 89

J Barton 39A Ooijer o.g. 45
Bookings:R Savage 57B McCarthy 62

Bookings:D Hamann 50M Richards 60B Corradi 68
Chelsea
1-0(HT 1-0)
Liverpool
D Drogba 42

Bookings:K Boulahrouz 26D Drogba 30P Cech 90

Bookings:S Warnock 5ML Sissoko 44
Sent off:M Ballack 51

Man Utd
0-1(HT 0-0)
Arsenal

E Adebayor 86
Bookings:W Brown 60P Scholes 71

Bookings:J Lehmann 5K Toure 9
Tottenham
0-0(HT 0-0)
Fulham
Bookings:P Chimbonda 45AH Mido 50

Bookings:L Boa Morte 45C Bocanegra 52
West Ham
0-2(HT 0-0)
Newcastle

D Duff 50O Martins 75
Bookings:T Mears 45M Harewood 74P Konchesky 78

Bookings:C Babayaro 41C Moore 74S Parker 77
Saturday, 16 September 2006
Bolton
0-0(HT 0-0)
Middlesbrough

Bookings:A Johnson 20
Charlton
0-1(HT 0-0)
Portsmouth

L LuaLua 74

Bookings:G O'Neil 45N Kanu 90
Everton
2-2(HT 0-0)
Wigan
A Johnson 49J Beattie (pen) 66

P Scharner 62P Scharner 68
Bookings:P Neville 30

Bookings:A De Zeeuw 19C Kirkland 19AL Valencia 31E Heskey 78L Baines 80
Sheff Utd
1-2(HT 0-2)
Reading
R Hulse 61

K Doyle 1S Ki-Hyeon 25
Bookings:D Unsworth 38D Sommeil 90

Bookings:G Little 74
Watford
0-0(HT 0-0)
Aston Villa
Bookings:M Mackay 65

Monday, 11 September 2006
Reading
1-0(HT 1-0)
Man City
I Ingimarsson 22


Bookings:S Distin 21C Reyna 51T Sinclair 53J Barton 90

Sent off:O Dabo 79
Sunday, 10 September 2006
West Ham
1-1(HT 0-1)
Aston Villa
B Zamora 51

L Ridgewell 3
Bookings:H Mullins 45B Zamora 57

Bookings:G Barry 25G McCann 54
Saturday, 09 September 2006
Arsenal
1-1(HT 0-1)
Middlesbrough
T Henry (pen) 67

J Morrison 22
Bookings:R Van Persie 50

Bookings:E Pogatetz 28A Davies 52J Euell 62S Downing 67L Cattermole 79G Boateng 63

Sent off:G Boateng 64
Bolton
1-0(HT 0-0)
Watford
G Speed (pen) 90

Bookings:K Nolan 66A Meite 90Q Fortune 90

Bookings:M Mackay 36
Chelsea
2-1(HT 1-0)
Charlton
D Drogba 5AS Ricardo Carvalho 62

J Hasselbaink 53
Bookings:M Ballack 40AS Ricardo Carvalho 58

Bookings:A Faye 40
Everton
3-0(HT 2-0)
Liverpool
T Cahill 23A Johnson 35A Johnson 90

Bookings:J Yobo 33

Bookings:ML Sissoko 74J Riise 78S Hyypia 90
Man Utd
1-0(HT 1-0)
Tottenham
R Giggs 8

Bookings:K Richardson 66P Evra 90

Bookings:AH Mido 57H Ghaly 57
Newcastle
1-2(HT 0-0)
Fulham
S Parker 53

B McBride 81C Bocanegra 88
Bookings:B Emre 69

Bookings:M Brown 45
Portsmouth
1-0(HT 0-0)
Wigan
B Mwaruwari 48


Bookings:F Hall 75
Sheff Utd
0-0(HT 0-0)
Blackburn
Bookings:R Hulse 74M Tonge 79

Bookings:Z Khizanishvili 74R Savage 90


Ok.. there u go..another month of premiership.. though it was spoiled by international matched for euro..
ok.. thios month ended as last month..with Manchester United on top..

Lets me brief you with what happened this month...
ARSENAL started september in the bottom 3.. and ended the month 5 points behind chelsea and manchester united,

Manchester united didnt hav a great month.. thouhgh they beat celtic and benfica in the euro cup.. theylost to arsenal.. which was a bad play..and drew ith reading..lost 5 points.. beat spurs..and toons....rooney still in bad shape..
Cheslea won every match except with Villa.. so they and many stay top on 16 points.. but man u overatke em with better goal diffrence..

portsmouth title hopes ( lol)... ended with 2 straight defeats.

Liverpool in the mean while .. showed consistency in defeats.. but the picture perfect image was their defeat to everton..

Everton.. and bolton complete the top order of rankings.. deservin every point they achieved.

In the bottom half.. its .. charlton takin honors.. with watford..

In the champiosnhiop.sunderland kept wining.. making 3 wins.. 1 loss and 1 draw under roy keane.. and leeds sacked their head coach .

Spanish league..barcelona top.. with good display.. though to be seen is barca v cheslea.. comin up
OCTOBER EARLY WEEK WIL be spoiled with international matches.. andthen the carling cup.. where man u play crewe..and blackburn take on chelsea.


Overall the month was not so great.. but man u nited top the highest scoring t eam..and drogba.. finds the net,...

God bless footballlll..come end of october.. lets see who stays on top...

expected clash..man u nited v liverpooll.....

anyways the title wont be decided in october...
stay cool.. and enjoy..

A leaf from my notebook-- Moody sessions - the See through Top View:

Moody Sessions

Sometimes I wonder... ( this are the times, when i am like dead tierd.. not enough sleep... lot of footie...)

Yes!! we all think if life was like those in fairytales, how beautiful it wud have been...

It all started with a prince kissing a frog... And there u go… Princess appears…. What a waste of a Fairytale (Though Gay activists are fighting for the true case.. igniting the debate.. what if the frog turned into a prince and not a princess.. Gosh)

Life, a topic always talked on my Bloggs… is once again the matter of discussion here.

Ok. Girls... Same shit, Different day types.

How can one lose his heart to so many girls and in the same time, break up with them, so he can fall in love with someone else.


Why does Man go for the one he loves, than the one who loves him?

The thing is I am begining to believe that I am falling in love, maybe coming into terms with myself.. consoling myself.. Yes! why not.. Give love a fourth chance... and this time.. be serious.. try not to get bored.. dont tax urself 2 much.

But the thing is, whom I am in love with..is it the one, whom u know.. or is it someone I want to know.. Do not know.. but yes!! defintely will know there will be an answer at the end of the road.. and believe I wont be at crossroads.

Maybe all I need is some time with myself, and then all this feeling will diasppear..or maybe, I should engage myself in something..like learn golf with a broom and some trash.

Or is it the feeling that you are lonely..and definetly u believe that Loneliness cannot have a friend in you.. which is good guess .. but then.. why did it come to me.. there are 100 people out there.. go after em...I am happy.. or I think I am happy the way I am .

The irony of the entire sitaution is that when ur itunes is on shuffle.. it only plays sad.. romantic numbers.. when there are tones of fast numbers stored in the database.

Why is that feeling that when ever she goes away..she takes a peice of me..which is wierd.. I have nothin to give..

I think I am in a dream.. coz.. this cant happen to me.. And seriosuly I am geting bored with this subject... no way.. I am single..and love me.. there is nothing else.. maybe I should block everygal.. i think is cauing this menace.. Or maybe stay offline from all these chat sites.. damm orkut!!!!

Anywyas.. I got somethin more interestin to write..football focus for the month of september

tada

Life as it is to be!

Life is as it is to be!!!!! --( M here means for MANU...)




I was thinkin.. quite wierd.. me and think.. 2 diifrent worlds as such!!1

Why is the world so static.. I mean its so defined ..

Sometimes I have this feeling that people are going out of my life..and the strangest part of it is that these people are the ones who you hold close to the heart.. The enemies stay and keep u in their plans.

Life is like a cycle.. I mean. how vunerable were we. as Kids.. and we grow.. Time never stops.. though we wished..

U always wonder why dosent time stop.. be it schooling years.. maybe ur first kiss.. ur college years... But then atleast all humans stand united . on why time aint flying..when we work in a corporate world.

SOmetimes when one leaves.. it leaves me so incomplete.. even if I havent known him for long. I have that bad habit of isolating myself from worlds I hate. For eg, A gal I loved.. I had to do things that kept me goin on and carryin on .. Even if that meant I kept myself apart from my best friends who she was in touch with. I DON;T regret it .. but sometimes inside , I feel that I have lost what I have earned.. and ..carrying on.. dosent find a meaning.. ONE have to start all over.

I havent slept for days.. thanks to the work.. and maybe thats why my mind is weaker than the body..

Sometimes makes u wonder.. if one marries as well.. how can u say the love is fake..and its forced upon to the belief that he or she has embarked on a mission..and to keep the mission alive.. u have to lie to urself.

Ok, I do believe..without Love , one is incomplete.. Be it love for a human being or some common thing.. Its just a reason tolook forward to ..somewhere ..some distance.

Thats why.. I always say look at kids.. u learn many things new.. their love is so pure. I mean when they call u chachan..come and play with us.. and makes u do all the stupid thing ... that makes u want to laugh at urself.. u atleast find urself so happy at those moments.

But then the worst thing happens.. They grow up..and such unadultrated Innocence.. goes away.. and the next thing u know is you are old.


There are people who crawl up2 when u have a decent job..and earn good money..where were these buggers when u wanted a help.. maybe a hand on ur shoulder to tell u ..carry on.. U willl find what u seek!!!

I just want to sleep..sleep.. get into that world of dreams where u know.. u will find peace.
This world is goin on a fast pace.. and the worst thing sometimes u feel like a handicapped.. I mean..where are all these people runnin..2.. what are they gainin out of all thse.. monetary happinesss..

Gosh.. i want to take my anger out on someone.. only if there was someone whom I cud hang on the wall naked..and use the feather treatment. make him laugh .. ticklin him with a feather.. till she pleads..to kill her...hmm


..WHATS THE POINT OF ADVISIN ME.. THERE IS A SAYIN IN MALAYALAM..
"" UNCLE DONT BEAT ME.. THERE IS NO USE.. I WONT IMPROVE.. """

OR WAS IT THIS SAYING

" A PERSON WITH JAUNDICE WILL ONLY SEE YELLOW""

Sometimes.. I get that happy feeling when i talk to my team leader.. he teaches me well..and we crack jokes.. lol.. YEA.. those fake lauhs to compliment his jokes mite get me a good raise.. on my pay in this months apraisal.

damm the departments are blaming each other for the network failure.. this is how the diagram goes to..

Department 1...blames Department 2..which inturns blames Department 3..( and since there are no other people to blame..) ..department 3 finds the local.. bangladesh cleaners.to blame.. saying its all their fault.. they cleaned the place and strangles the wires which made some non defined error in inter galatic measurement which made the network..go haywire..

And since the bangladeshis cleaners dont understand.. the inter galatic part..and goes in the assumption that they goin to get Galaxy chocalates.. say yes.. and hence .. Problems solved for technical guys..sad .. But hey thats the world.. AND thats how things work....

Anyways.. thast it from me.. I am kinda runing out of ideas.. I did compliments from people about the articles I write that dosnet contain profanity or vulgarisms..well I think its 1 or 2 compliments.. I got .. buy hey that number is better than 0.

I was like hintin,..Mom.. I mite want to take a week off..go to europe..relaz.. change of weather.. and there they go.. why dont u do it as a honeymoon trip... I am like.. screw everythin.. I rather furnish my room and stay alone...and make a entrance and exit from my window.. so I can call it a tree house..

Anyways..God bless u World..

take care
this is IJV.. signin off........

Dreams, Reality and Bloggs

If Martin Luther can have a dream.. so can I. So who cares. that his dream is more globalized... in rooms..as posters..pencil boxed...tiffin box.. damm.. i cant take the tiffin box thing.

So here I am .. AT work.. Thinking.. where do I see myself in next 5 years.
The usual question u get to answer at the interviews... I mean.. quite a stupid question.. what goes in my mind that time.. is ' I HAVE NO IDEA IF MY GALS WAITIN FOR ME OUTSIRE..AND U ASK ME WHAT I SEE IN 5 YEARS TIME'...TRUST ME I DONT SEE MYSELF WOKRING FOR YOUR COMPANY..

Anyways.. I do ask myself that question this very moment...
and first thing that comes to my eenie meenie head is..

1) Travel around the world.. skip Usa.. Hate that place
2) Get lost....use the maps.. which columbus uses...3) get molested.. raped.. by play boy gals..robbed... and so messed up.
4) Find relatives.. blood line..and make sure they throw me out of homes
5) GET MY vredit card rejected
6) fall in love with a gal..and get dumped as welll..when she comes to find out u havent had a bath since the whole world thing started
7) call up dad in the last moment and tell him.. the above were the reasons.. I didnt want to take u with me.. pleaseeeeeeeeeee... send me some money..


Career wise.. I havent thought much.. the point is .. I cant do world domination and stuff like that .. because its too easy.. I mean.. thats what other people called terrorists do.. I just want to sit down..relax..have a coffee from my hometown called starbucks and watch the gals.. bang someone.. assuming the very thought that the gals..didnt see me!!!!


Reality..:: All i can say is playin and watchin football..
This is what actually happens in the school.. not with any comparissons to Prashants blogg

ok.. its starts of like this.. Niraml.. beeps everyones mobile.. football at 7.. cool.. I wud be like..ok.. cool no problems mate.

Ok..so what time does the match start..7.30ish.. because everyone comes too early..
so team is decided.. and match starts..
ouch!.. fouls here and there.. jaison does his usual training he learnt from Karate Kid..everyone plays.. And I loose my game plan..because there are some lovely gals doin Yoga.. in the Auditorium....and when the gals come out.. I am like.. the next Maradona on court.. making sure.. who cares of the team u playin.. I shud be having the ball in my feet and scoring at the nearest goal to the gals.

Then Binoy comes in with his formalized attire..and thats the time u know the games gonna end...

and I actually kill my time..playing football and work..
I usually go angry.. from home..fo to offive..and wait for my boss.. this is how it goes:::

Boss: Hello Immanuel
Immanuel: Hello Boss( mind says... Hello Fucker.. u slept well ydya.. ANd what did i do..play ping pong with the comp)

Boss: How come u in office.. U are supposed to be sleeping
Immanuel: Ya .. had some work in office AND HAD to meet u and Hr ( Oh god! he actually dreams of me sleeping.. hmm wrong angle)

Boss: Immanuel.. u need to do nite shifts to cover up till we get the people back from vacation
Immanue: sure boss.. no probs..( fucker.. he played the move before me.....)

Boss: thanks immanuel.. u doing well
Immanuel: Thank you ( how did he know.. that ..it was well kept open secret..bastards.. mushy me with those HR lines.. I hate bloddy Hrs...)

WORST IS THE HR

HR: Hello Immanuel, hows is your work
Imms: goin on.. no complaints

HR: SIGN IN HERE ,.THERE.. blah blah..and then the bonus stuff.. discussions
Imms: ok ok ok ok ok...but....
HR.....: SHUNNU ( ARABIC)
Imms: Nothin..end of topic
(Why dosent he understand english)


Blogss: Moto pays me for this.... lol.. thats the morale of the story.

I think i SHUD mAKE A ' i have a dream speech for mallus"""cool...let me do it :::

I HAVE A DREAM by Immsy

( situation: standing by the kerala famous coffee house.. Indian coffee house..in front of the many small kids.. aged 7 and 8...looking with pride and anticpation.. to Immsy)

( on the side.. there are free lollipos and teddy bears for evry free participant)


I am happy to join with you (since u have no other choice) today in what will go down in this Blogg as the greatest demonstration for Thonivasam ( in english called fuckup) in the history of our state.

28 score years ago, a great mallu was born( which is irrelevant..but .. just to remind u guys I am 28..and still single), in whose symbolic shadow we stand today(ya since me facing the sun.. u guys get the shadow part of me.. Lucky fools), read this Blogg .


This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Mosquities( who outnumber the people in Kerala)who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice( damm those mosquito coils and good nite repellants). It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of their captivity.(seriosuly night in kerla is long.. with no power supply and .. mosquitoes playin music on ur ears..)


But one hundred years later, the Mallus still inot free. One hundred years later, the life of a Mallu is still sadly crippled by the busty shakeela and the blood sucked. One hundred yearslater, the Mallus lives on a lonely land of proms and local toddy.

One hundred years later, the Mallus still languishing in the corners of YMCA and YWCA society and finds himself STILL SINGLE. So we have come here today to dramatize a shameful condition.( KASHTAM)


In a sense we have come to Keralas capital to cash a check which wud defintely bounce. When the alcoholics of kerala ruled, they were signing a promissory note to which every Mallu was considerred. This note was a promise that all men, yes, mallu men as well as mallu women, would be guaranteed the unalienable rights of alcohol, fish, and the pursuit of unemployment through trade unions.


It is obvious today thatKerala has defaulted on this promissory note insofar as her citizens of gender are concerned.


Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, Kerala has given the mallu people a bad Chief Minister, a check which has come back marked "insufficient funds."

But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt ( actually its more than corrupt..). We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this State.( please pinch me..s o i know i am not dreamin.. while i say this)



So we have come to cash this check -- a check that will pay off this bill that costed me to speak in front of you .( electricity bill)



We have also come to this hallowed spot( guys ..stop..its not yet halloween) to remind Kerala of the fierce urgency of now( guys the toilet is that way ).




Seriosuly I CANT continue.. its 2 much..did he get killed after he said this speech.. because i seriously cant blame the person who did taht .. I mean.. how long can one .. stand patience.. I mean.. ITS easy for a perosn to talk..

gosh.. anyways.. thank GOD i wasnt one of them...

Lal Salam.. Friends

Time

Lying awake in my bed. I wonder.. Looking at the clock thatt ticks..
Where have we reached.

Though Quite often I write shiity stuff on my blogg.. I am taking this one out of them.

Some times one wonders how lucky we are.. and sometimes we dont. U often see people praying hard in church..and people waitin for the final bell.

These days church goes on global issues.. waste a lot of money on church gatherings.. think twice to give a needy some donation... thanks to mallu politics.

Imean there are many orphans who need that money to run a desire which lukcy some dont. Donations.. luxury has kept people thinking of getin themself a Sony.. plasma.. or for theyouth today .. Play station or Ipod..

No-one wonders a small luxury like this can give food to an orphan for a year.

Man was never made to be happy..and its true ... In anyones case.. people are always unhappy.. not because they have verythin.. just becasuse the other person has half of what he's got.

Pity the people who run for elections to grab attention in church.. they promise so many stuff..but in the end.. when a needy comes for some help.. ittakes them ages to decide.. by then.. the needy would have lost the cause.

I belive in GOD... and I believe that God did make religions to reduce the tensions between Mankind. With the amount of religions.. u can see whats happeni,.. so just imagine if there was one for all.

I am kinda religious here today.. havent seen church for more than a month..blame my timings.. though all i do when i am inchurch is spend .15 minutes in 2 hours with God.. He knows me well.. so Do I .we have this partership.. u do ur 50 honestly..and I do mine.

Sometimes these are those awful moments when u think.. u are alone..and need a partner for life.. but seriously in Kuwait to maintain a Dog is much more expenisve that a woman..so.. guess me being a not so rich guy wud opt for the lesser of 2 evils..Maybe I am wrong. i HAVENT made the rite balance sheet..witha woman comes childresn.. in the long run..lol...( and moreover Dog dies fast )..

Now, some of the mates ask me why do i be rude.. or rather be someone that I aint .. in my Bloggs.. the truth is I dont see how I aint rude. I mean i try to be nice with everyone.. try goin thru the right chanels.. but sometimes.. u have to get ur true identity out somewhere .

Ok.. I am illegal in dowloads.. but hey .. as I told u earlier.. I am a poor man.. aint no sunshine....lol

Sometimes u dont see how time passed.. For ayear I had kept myself in the runing for a better career..shun myself out from everyone..and people used to say .. I am losin my life..here i am.. career allrite.... life allrite..friends ..allrite.. But have I lost somethin.. I dont know.. maybe I lost a quite few people.. whom I cud have loved.

But seriously how does one get out of the house.all u wud hear is friends gossipn about the others... oozig out how much he gets,. what he doin.. whats she doin

There is this gal.. who i have herd so much bad reviews.. but seriously I dont see anythinw rong with her.. she belives in her Life that there is more to life that the Kuwaiti Dinar.. which I believe.. and respect her in her decisons.. but lol! thanks to me.. and my rudeness.. down the drain.

Now.. What more can I say..I have seen loosers.. work in kuwait and brag about how unjust it is India.. all they care is work home and sleep..which is good.. maybe I am wrong.. Maybe they are right..lol...

Now.. why so much hatred to Love.. the entity.. dont know if I can answer that.. But seriously how can one live with one person ... i mean.. lifetime is long.. Ok.. I did say time passes fast.. but then.. u dont have responisbilities waitin for u next day.. I mean..
for a stag ... imagine the pillow is all that occupies his space.


I have no idea.. where I have reached so far.. Started of with somethin and continuing off with somethin...

Anyways..life has to go on.. and this sunday .. I am goin for a cracker .. of a treat.. double sunday showdown...